Curled in a ball at the foot of your bed makes it easy to think there's nothing in the world but you.
Reviewing the day, you had seemed off; detached. Now you sat at the side of the bed, staring out the window, a hand on your dog's head.
I just wanted to see you end the night with a smile.
"I know it sounded like I was joking when I said it earlier, but you know I was serious, right? You are my hero."
"Why?"
'Why' is a cold word. An unsure word. A word that's been broken and shakily put back together to form some semblance of what it once was and begs for explanations that don't exist.
I hate it the second it leaves your mouth.
"You're
The door is thrown wide open as you come running out, direct and focused as ever.
You still saw me and paused though you were heading for your hideous car.
I was sitting on the stone wall thirty feet away past the garden and benches, barely in the light from the bright church window.
You changed course and slowly approached my wall.
I was looking at the silhouette of tree branches against the night sky.
You were looking at designs and blueprints.
I contemplated jumping off the other side and going for a walk.
You would have caught up.
I never knew someone so genuine.
Your long limbs make it easy for you to climb up next to me.
I loo
I've been thinking
of bad habits I broke.
But maybe now isn't the time.
It hurts to breathe
and I exhale out short sentences
raspy with razor blades and viral mucus in my throat
making it hard to maneuver my voice.
When did I last eat?
I keep losing weight.
I've got all these apologies bubbling
in my chest for faults and failings
so that I can't help but to believe I'm lacking
in the substantial things.
The important things.
This must be my punishment.
I'm missing the things that make me an acceptable person.
The digits reading 100.3 every day don't surprise me anymore.
No, now isn't the time to talk.
These consequences are too wea
can you pinpoint when it got so complicated
when i became everything you seem to hate
'cause it's a mystery to me how we went from something more to something less
and the fact that it kills me is something i can't and won't let myself confess
it can't be him because even he knew
i'd leave him in a heartbeat for you
was it when i was gone 'cause even then i tried
but seeing some stupid words and i as good as cried
and i don't know what caused this and i'm too scared to ask
and the time spent apart is time gone too fast
how long will this go on or will it even end
or has it already stopped with no hope to mend
and i know you see right th
It was the first time in a long time that I'd felt like singing, but your voice was already filling the air with a range somehow encompassing both the comforting tenor and the rumbling bass, so I stifled my nervous laughter.
And sometimes I just can't believe that people like you exist.
It was a surprise to me that I didn't want to dance with you. We were in the perfect setting in the middle of the night, in the middle of an empty road, but I just wanted to watch your face as you smirked and sang the words to a cheesy song I'd never heard before with a wonderfully melodramatic voice.
And then I couldn't believe that you made me twirl about
I often feel as though I come off all wrong
Like the facts don't matter for very long
As long as I cover myself in ideals and words
No one can touch me and my true form is blurred
But there is a heavy weight, always on my chest
And my weak bones are tired and begging for rest
So I've a few truths that I would like to say
I can only hope they won't ruin our day
I've seen what others' have and oh, how I want!
No matter how much I have, it cannot daunt!
No matter how much, I'll always want more!
If only I had energy to get out the door!
And I hate myself for not doing things right!
Like all those beautiful people just beyond sight!
Despite all
I was outside more often than he, but somehow when my hand held his, his was always darker.
Kind of like his blue eyes. I remember thinking those eyes could see everything and I was laid bare before them. They would see my faults, my mistakes, all of the horrible characteristics I mask behind smiles and teasing tones and for those eyes I dropped all pretenses. In hindsight, I feel like they saw nothing.
We would sit there in his little white room and my heart would be a fire- no, an inferno, never-ending and all-consuming. Our skin wasn't our only difference. Where I was all anger and forward motion and need and detail he was indifference a
I try to not smile as I lean against the stair rail leading to your death trap of a bedroom and watch you at the counter. You're chatting away again and I'm barely listening, just trying to immortalize this almost living feeling within myself as you throw random things that sound tasty to you into the pan on your stove. I never did learn to cook. And that never did phase you.
I smile at the memory of your slightly chaotic eyes as you whipped around, forever full of energy with your stirring spoon to look me in the eye and say, "Ah, that's fine. I like to cook, you like to bake. See? We're balanced!" Eyes alight and face in full smile.
And s
I'm curled up in the corner of the couch, as far from you as I can possibly be while still appearing comfortable- after all, you're supposed to be comfortable watching a movie with a friend- especially after stealing his favorite spot. Then your puppy runs his head into the bottom of the couch trying to join us. You leaned down and helped him up, muttering about "kids these day" and playfully rubbing his ears.
As he lays awkwardly between us I can relax with the new courtesy barrier that is your stupid yellow lab in the foot of space between us. And all that is "dog" assaults my nose, but his presence allows me to sit up straighter and stret
Curled in a ball at the foot of your bed makes it easy to think there's nothing in the world but you.
Reviewing the day, you had seemed off; detached. Now you sat at the side of the bed, staring out the window, a hand on your dog's head.
I just wanted to see you end the night with a smile.
"I know it sounded like I was joking when I said it earlier, but you know I was serious, right? You are my hero."
"Why?"
'Why' is a cold word. An unsure word. A word that's been broken and shakily put back together to form some semblance of what it once was and begs for explanations that don't exist.
I hate it the second it leaves your mouth.
"You're
The door is thrown wide open as you come running out, direct and focused as ever.
You still saw me and paused though you were heading for your hideous car.
I was sitting on the stone wall thirty feet away past the garden and benches, barely in the light from the bright church window.
You changed course and slowly approached my wall.
I was looking at the silhouette of tree branches against the night sky.
You were looking at designs and blueprints.
I contemplated jumping off the other side and going for a walk.
You would have caught up.
I never knew someone so genuine.
Your long limbs make it easy for you to climb up next to me.
I loo
I've been thinking
of bad habits I broke.
But maybe now isn't the time.
It hurts to breathe
and I exhale out short sentences
raspy with razor blades and viral mucus in my throat
making it hard to maneuver my voice.
When did I last eat?
I keep losing weight.
I've got all these apologies bubbling
in my chest for faults and failings
so that I can't help but to believe I'm lacking
in the substantial things.
The important things.
This must be my punishment.
I'm missing the things that make me an acceptable person.
The digits reading 100.3 every day don't surprise me anymore.
No, now isn't the time to talk.
These consequences are too wea
can you pinpoint when it got so complicated
when i became everything you seem to hate
'cause it's a mystery to me how we went from something more to something less
and the fact that it kills me is something i can't and won't let myself confess
it can't be him because even he knew
i'd leave him in a heartbeat for you
was it when i was gone 'cause even then i tried
but seeing some stupid words and i as good as cried
and i don't know what caused this and i'm too scared to ask
and the time spent apart is time gone too fast
how long will this go on or will it even end
or has it already stopped with no hope to mend
and i know you see right th
It was the first time in a long time that I'd felt like singing, but your voice was already filling the air with a range somehow encompassing both the comforting tenor and the rumbling bass, so I stifled my nervous laughter.
And sometimes I just can't believe that people like you exist.
It was a surprise to me that I didn't want to dance with you. We were in the perfect setting in the middle of the night, in the middle of an empty road, but I just wanted to watch your face as you smirked and sang the words to a cheesy song I'd never heard before with a wonderfully melodramatic voice.
And then I couldn't believe that you made me twirl about
I often feel as though I come off all wrong
Like the facts don't matter for very long
As long as I cover myself in ideals and words
No one can touch me and my true form is blurred
But there is a heavy weight, always on my chest
And my weak bones are tired and begging for rest
So I've a few truths that I would like to say
I can only hope they won't ruin our day
I've seen what others' have and oh, how I want!
No matter how much I have, it cannot daunt!
No matter how much, I'll always want more!
If only I had energy to get out the door!
And I hate myself for not doing things right!
Like all those beautiful people just beyond sight!
Despite all
I was outside more often than he, but somehow when my hand held his, his was always darker.
Kind of like his blue eyes. I remember thinking those eyes could see everything and I was laid bare before them. They would see my faults, my mistakes, all of the horrible characteristics I mask behind smiles and teasing tones and for those eyes I dropped all pretenses. In hindsight, I feel like they saw nothing.
We would sit there in his little white room and my heart would be a fire- no, an inferno, never-ending and all-consuming. Our skin wasn't our only difference. Where I was all anger and forward motion and need and detail he was indifference a
I try to not smile as I lean against the stair rail leading to your death trap of a bedroom and watch you at the counter. You're chatting away again and I'm barely listening, just trying to immortalize this almost living feeling within myself as you throw random things that sound tasty to you into the pan on your stove. I never did learn to cook. And that never did phase you.
I smile at the memory of your slightly chaotic eyes as you whipped around, forever full of energy with your stirring spoon to look me in the eye and say, "Ah, that's fine. I like to cook, you like to bake. See? We're balanced!" Eyes alight and face in full smile.
And s
I'm curled up in the corner of the couch, as far from you as I can possibly be while still appearing comfortable- after all, you're supposed to be comfortable watching a movie with a friend- especially after stealing his favorite spot. Then your puppy runs his head into the bottom of the couch trying to join us. You leaned down and helped him up, muttering about "kids these day" and playfully rubbing his ears.
As he lays awkwardly between us I can relax with the new courtesy barrier that is your stupid yellow lab in the foot of space between us. And all that is "dog" assaults my nose, but his presence allows me to sit up straighter and stret
Thank You, Friend. by dude123456789012345, literature
Literature
Thank You, Friend.
Thank you, friend, for all the things
That mean so much to me--
For concern and understanding
You give abundantly.
Thanks for listening with your heart;
For cheering me when I'm blue;
For bringing out the best in me;
And just for being you.
Thanks for in-depth conversation
That stimulates my brain;
For silly times we laugh out loud;
For things I can't explain.
For looking past my flaws and faults;
For all the time you spend;
For all the kind things that you do,
Thank you; thank you, friend.
Deaden these nerve endings,
Pulsing and pounding
Cut off these senses,
Screaming and howling
Bring me to sorrow,
On rose petals scattered
Cause me some grief,
Like none of this mattered
Drown me in rip-tides,
Stained cherry red
Ignore all the regrets,
In the back of my head
Sympathetic agony,
Ripped up in wonder
Drive a blade through my back,
Tearing all bonds asunder
Leave me cold, leave me dead,
Let us cease to be
Spiraling a whirlpool of anger and sorrow
Complete agony
Celebrate now as the world falls to ashes
Burning winds whipping up flames in flickering flashes
Tear up the building around you with wonder
Scrapping off skin as you rip all asunder
Chain down the innocent straight to their bed posts
Cutting up lovely lines as the room roasts
Dance with your sins, all dressed up in black
Waving and weaving and moving all slack
Set fire to flowers, all colors and sizes
Leave nothing left but the concrete that rises
Stumble through fields full of cigarette butts
Laughing with pleasure as you rip out your guts
Isn't it wonderful? This chaos enabled?
Wasn't it beautifully terribly fabled?
This deli
This Wonderful World by Unluckyshadow13, literature
Literature
This Wonderful World
He sits at home writing love songs gone sour
Fitfully watching the hour hand spin
She plucks a rose with embittered intention
Gleefully watching the briar glint red
The world chokes on ashes of cigarette boxes
Burned down to all cinder and stumps
He strokes the cheek of a beautiful woman
Grasping his ring as he slips out the door
She bathes in moonlight on the edge of her window
Watching the rubies drip down from her wrist
The world cries out in sadness and madness unwritten
Silently drowning in everyones fears
He burns the candle stump down at both ends
Whispering vows to the dark
She sits and she shivers in frost-bitten wonder
Jaded
Look out, Baby,
Im on a roll.
You instilled me with fire,
And must pay the toll.
Shut up and miss me,
Get out of my dreams.
First love isnt easy,
As it initially seems.
I sent you a letter
I wrote you a song
I gave you a promise
That didnt last long.
An oath for an oath
Look here, wont you?
When my heart is impaired
I can be a heartbreaker, too.
You riddled me with holes
I slashed up my skin
I just wanted my first kiss,
But came out with original sin.
I jaded and repulsed
And Im not quite sure how
But really, my Darling
Its too late for that now.
Love is just a game
Never won
Slanted Cursive by daydreamishxxvampire, literature
Literature
Slanted Cursive
Slanted Cursive
It starts out weak and rounded, frail;
I have only ever seen as pale
Your face when you delivered this note
This piece of parchment on which you wrote.
It transforms into a quicker scrawl
Tall and erect, not unlike a wall
I imagine your furious expression
As you demand the matter receive attention
And once more lackadaisical
As the tone is calm and cool
But the scorn seeps throughout the words
Manipulating the marionettes chords
Slanted cursive sprouts like weeds,
Untended, and untamed indeed
I admit that I wish that youd write
To me in love, instead of spite.
You close the letter Indifferent
Forever is...
A pretty thing
Vibrant and shining
Full of life and hope
Forever is...
A promise made
With tender love
By foolish hearts
Forever is...
A candle stump
Flickering and sputtering
On dying embers
Forever is...
An empty shell
Cast aside
All too easily
Forever is....
An empty word
Tossed around too often
Drained of meaning
Dear Loser...Drop Dead
What do you want me to say,
What do you want me to do
Maybe that you are meant for me
Or rather me for no one but you
Because I can't utter those words
And compromise my heart
I won't love you at the end
Because I don't love you at the start
I'd rather cry a million oceans
Or murder three trillion squids
Before I was your lover
Or the mother of your kids
That may be too harsh
But I'm not making an apology
Because you need to go away
Since we're never EVER meant to be
Someday you'll find someone else
Who will melt upon your touch?
And you'll remember this heartbreak
But it won't seem like so much
Veins
I dream that the veins in my hands come outside my skin
Oh so blue oh so frail so wiry and thin
And the arteries are just afraid to take a chance
The arteries know that they cannot dance
And all the children are asleep cannot see whats happening
And the wives are alive only in fantasy
And my love oh my love is he underground?
My veins hear my screams they will dance to the sound
Oh my lies, oh my lies, can I take them all back now?
If I ask, will they fly, right back into my mouth
I am poor deep inside my riches and my wealth
And my love, oh my love, why do I do this to myself?
For you, and your Christmas trees
For y
It's my last semester at college. Parents want me to go to graduate school and they don't believe me when I tell them no. Won't they be surprised. I'm sleeping an awful lot. My coworker suggested I have a bad luck aura and it's leaking. I don't think she's far off. I'm a walking contagion. I think I'm going to leave town soon. I just need a little more cash.
Oh dear. I respect teachers so much more after having to write lesson plans for one of the courses I'm taking... Well, the good teachers at least.
So earlier today I practically begged a teacher to allow me in his class. Good thing I've not ego. I was shamelessly throwing the "but I can graduate this December if I get in this class!" and "But the chair of the department said it wouldn't be a problem!" I regret nothing.
So recently I've gotten a new friend. This always throws me off. They last an average of four to eight months then disappear for various reasons (Not "go missing", we just stop being friends for random reasons). This one will
So I have had this persistent headache and it may be making me crazy. It's one of those that's not quite painful but it makes your head feel heavy and too warm and you can hear your heart pushing the blood through your vessels. Bleh.
Anyway, I'm kind of uncertain about what to write about lately. No inspiration, oh sigh.
So I had to take a StrengthsFinder thing for a class last semester and a friend of mine reminded me of it. Basically it's a bunch of "What do you like more?" questions with seemingly unrelated things. Based off your answers it selects five traits out of thirty-four that are most pronounced in your personality. My strongest