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2013 Fall

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It's my last semester at college. Parents want me to go to graduate school and they don't believe me when I tell them no. Won't they be surprised. I'm sleeping an awful lot. My coworker suggested I have a bad luck aura and it's leaking. I don't think she's far off. I'm a walking contagion. I think I'm going to leave town soon. I just need a little more cash.
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Oh dear. I respect teachers so much more after having to write lesson plans for one of the courses I'm taking... Well, the good teachers at least.

So earlier today I practically begged a teacher to allow me in his class. Good thing I've not ego. I was shamelessly throwing the "but I can graduate this December if I get in this class!" and "But the chair of the department said it wouldn't be a problem!" I regret nothing.

So recently I've gotten a new friend. This always throws me off. They last an average of four to eight months then disappear for various reasons (Not "go missing", we just stop being friends for random reasons). This one will last approximately 6 months due to the fact that he's moving with his friend to another state. Why'd he even befriend me? I mean come on, he knows he's leaving, why make another bridge that is just going to crumble like all the others? That is just cruelty....

*switches selected mood from previously selected "lazy" to "resentful"*

Anyway, I suppose I should finish my homework now that I've added some short stories... sigh.
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Whoosh

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So I have had this persistent headache and it may be making me crazy. It's one of those that's not quite painful but it makes your head feel heavy and too warm and you can hear your heart pushing the blood through your vessels. Bleh.

Anyway, I'm kind of uncertain about what to write about lately. No inspiration, oh sigh.

So I had to take a StrengthsFinder thing for a class last semester and a friend of mine reminded me of it. Basically it's a bunch of "What do you like more?" questions with seemingly unrelated things. Based off your answers it selects five traits out of thirty-four that are most pronounced in your personality. My strongest were: Restorative followed by Responsibility, Harmony, Empathy, and Analytical.

I had no idea I was such a feely person.
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New Year

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Well, that was a mediocre year. Anyway, here's my New Year's Resolution! I'm going to try to be more scheduled! This means my sleeping habits need a... complete make over, and that I need to pick up on the 100 themes challenge again. I think I can handle that. And whatever else falls under scheduling.

I wonder what my friends will make for their resolutions.

Cheers
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Well, I figured I might update this very out of date online journal of mine. I thought I might try to be honest too. That should be fun.

     I had the pleasure of frantically going through a homework assignment a bit ago. It was for my Pyschology of Abnormal Behavior class. I don't like it, but it's necessary, you've got to remember; baby steps (quite possibly the only thing I got out of my first go at counseling). This assignment - which should have been done bit by bit over time - ended up being a solid 4 hours of tear inducing video online and half considered note taking turned essay of mood disorders. The videos were of real people. Real people talking about their depression. And they aren't the attention grabbing depressed people either. They were the honest "Nothing will ever get better and I ought to kill myself because why not?" I thought we were done with this topic after going over it in class and I didn't want the reminders.

     So! Smile like you mean it! It's Halloween and I have no friends (except Ruby, the toy fox Nori sent me)! My mom called me yesterday on the verge of tears about a boy who killed himself! I haven't had a real conversation face-to-face in weeks! I hear things always look better in the morning. Shouldn't optimistic people be labeled delusional? I wish I were optimistic. Maybe I'll actually speak to someone tomorrow.

Cheers
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